I’ve always wanted to be 31 (and 34), an age seeming grown-up and young all at once. Unlike last year, where turning 30 suddenly opened my eyes to all thing “aging” (and questions like: holy sh*t, am I getting old?), this year feels easy.
Since last year, I went from a humdrum (but cushy) job to a much more difficult (but fulfilling) one. I use every bit of experience and skill I have every day – and in six months am fully facing my personal limitations. This is a good thing. Frustrating and emotion-laden, sure, but good. After last year’s angst over the job, it’s a relief to be here. Scary and mind-boggling (seriously), but a relief.
And hey, we’re in our second year of marriage! (Whew.) I feel parts of me (us) clicking into place. “Oh, that’s how it fits,” as if we are literally a puzzle with pieces to be turned until they fit. I once had this vision of all the knowledge in the world hovering around me like a galaxy of stars. Every epiphany connected a few until, at the end of my life, I’d have a spiderweb (constellation?) knit together of all I’d learned. In the past year, we’ve connected quite a few of those stars.
So what’s next? More of this, please. I’m too realistic to believe I’ll be comfortable just living for a whole year, living without changing, but I think I can manage most of a year. Almost one year of polishing the edges of our life rather than ripping things apart or throwing them together – that sounds good.
31 in 31:
- Take a photography class. (Online counts only if I follow through.)
- Attend a girls’ get-together.
- Keep in touch with Jen.
- When purchasing, stop settling for less (cheaper) than perfect.
- Dream bigger.
- Renovate the kitchen.
- Refinish the floors.
- Fix up our bedroom. (Get a bed!)
- Surprise Joey with a trip.
- Hike somewhere.
- Job shop.
- Be spontaneous at least once.
- Finish the guest suite.
- Listen to live music 12 times.
- Eat at home most weekdays.
- Get pregnant.
- Host a bonfire.
- Throw an outdoor party.
- Surprise my mom.
- Surprise my dad.
- Find a religion.
- Paint the garage doors.
- Read every unread book in the house. (The Unread Library)
- Say yes more than no.
- Laugh (out loud, sardonic laughs in my head don’t count) every day.
- Sex every day for a month.
- Get on the freaking lift! (snowboarding)
- Ship stuff from my old life away.
- Get a hammock.
- Dance for no reason.
- Plan a perfect vacation with Intrepid Tours.
- Pay off every debt.
- Be okay with my life for a while.
- Do what must be done (more than rage against reality).
- Play through the feelings (rather than around them).